But as clergy and good clinicians have listened to more stories like these, they have heard a new narrative, one that signals changes to the brain along with what in less spiritually challenged times might be called a shadow on the soul. It is the tale of disintegrating vets, but also of seemingly squared-away former soldiers and spit-shined generals shuttling between two worlds: ours, where thou shalt not kill is chiseled into everyday life, and another, where thou better kill, be killed, or suffer the shame of not trying. There is no more hellish commute.
At a certain point, the Iraqi fighters commandeered civilians¡¯ cars, taking them hostage and ordering them to drive straight at the Marine positions. The marines were forced to shoot at everything headed their way.posted by crayz at 11:17 AM on May 18, 2013
¡°We were opening fire on civilians,¡± Mr. Smith said. ¡°We were taking out women and children because it was them or us.¡±
Sergeant Major Lopez, his superior officer, said that his marines were ¡°put in that position¡± and ¡°trained to protect themselves first.¡±
¡°Our marines tried to limit civilian casualties,¡± he said. ¡°Not a person there didn¡¯t feel bad. But it had to be done.¡±
That day traumatized the reservists. [Christopher] Qui?ones recalled a father carrying toward them the limp body of a young child. His voice cracking, he described a 5-year-old boy screaming as his car ¡°turned into Swiss cheese.¡±
¡°I called cease-fire and I wanted to run and grab him, but there were machine gun rounds flying all around,¡± Mr. Qui?ones said. ¡°I watched this kid¡¯s head get blown away, his brains splattering while his screams still echoed. Those images haunt me ¡ª haunt many of us ¡ª to this day.¡±
During the 11 months in 2005 and 2006 that Walker spent in Iraq, he participated in roughly 250 combat missions, a high number even for trained infantry soldiers, to say nothing of a medic. Walker became so accustomed to combat, in fact, and so good at it, that the infantry soldiers from two separate platoons specifically requested his presence on their most perilous missions virtually every day for over a year. And Walker, who told me he joined the military in the first place because he wanted in the most fundamental way ¡°to help people,¡± obliged them ¡ª over and over again.The descriptions of combat, the aftermath of an IED, are pretty graphic.
¡°Before you go to war, you want stories, you know ¡ª that¡¯s the really tragic thing,¡± he told me, ¡°because this is that story, and there are no good guys, and no bad guys. And looking back, you think to yourself: What did you think was going to happen? Death or glory? And then you feel bad because this is exactly what you wanted. It¡¯s real easy to get into, and it¡¯s real hard to get out of.¡±
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